Why?

Tonight I have found myself in my messy room, at 12am, asking 'why?'. Again.
J confessed to me that he found himself 'very attracted to me', after breaking up with me and completely destroying me a year ago this month. I know what you're thinking, you're thinking, 'You don't want to be with him, he is a dick, and you can do better than him, and you're worth more'

But, it's been a year, and I haven't. Maybe it's just timing, or maybe I haven't allowed myself to find someone else, but Either way, I haven't.

Why now? In a few drunken text messages after Tropfest on City Rail? How is that worth it?

watch it! It's not a fucking can of tomaaytos!

Once and for all shut up and let me tell you what I need to say

i don’t know why,
 but every now and then in my life 
for no reason at all 
I need you.

So just go. So I can learn to live without you. Because all I've been doing is learning to live with you, and it doesn't go away. Neither do you

Great words

i was afraid that if i allowed him to let go of me that i would never be held like it again. i’m afraid that i will never find another person who fits with me as well as you.

Lessons Of The Week

What I Learnt This Week

1. Sometimes life fucks you over. Yeah, sometimes it does. Mostly, it fucks you over when you are least expecting the dreaded fuck over. And mostly, all the fuck-overs occur within a week of eachother. Just in case you were trying to hang on, its just a little message to let you know that you should let go.

2. Coldplay is great for crying to. (No explaination required.)

3. You have to say what you need to say. Life is too short not to. People's boyfriends die and other people get eating disorders and other people get fucked over by life (as mentioned above) and not for one second are these people regretting saying what they needed to say. They know where they stand and who they love. Why shouldn't we?

4. Get over it. Sometimes you fall in love and you're the only one in the well. You're gonna have to climb out sometime, and you're gonna have to do it yourself. Why not now?

5. Your family are the people you call. Think about the people you would first call if you got a job, won the lottery, fell in love, lost your arm or killed a person. Those people are the people you need, the people you love. They are your family. If they happen to be your biological relations-handy! If not, get out of denial and embrace it.


Just had the worst day ever and have just learnt how to deal...Hope this helped.

I know I probably love you all, but I just don't feel it right now, sorry, and I'll say it anyway

All my Love

losses for gain's sake

I've decided to give up alcohol. Its not something that HASNT been spurred from a traumatic event, but id rather not have one to talk about.

which is worse, Almost kissing and wanting to or kissing and regretting it?

Sorry, not much to report. School's back tomorrow grrrr

peace

Signore Scorsese

The Rise of Theodore Roosevelt (2011) (announced)
Sinatra (2011) (announced)
Silence (2011) (pre-production)
Untitled George Harrison Documentary (2010) (post-production)
Shutter Island (2010)
"Boardwalk Empire" (1 episode, 2009) - Pilot (2009) TV episode
Shine a Light (2008) ... aka Shine a Light: The IMAX Experience (USA: IMAX version)
The Key to Reserva (2007) ... aka La clave Reserva (Spain)
The Departed (2006)
No Direction Home: Bob Dylan (2005) ... aka Bob Dylan: No Direction Home (Australia)
The Aviator (2004) ... aka Aviator (Germany)
Lady by the Sea: The Statue of Liberty (2004) (TV)
Michael Jackson: Number Ones (2003) (V) (video "Bad")
"The Blues" (1 episode, 2003) - Feel Like Going Home (2003) TV episode
Gangs of New York (2002)
The Concert for New York City (2001) (TV) (segment "The Neighborhood")
Bringing Out the Dead (1999)
Il mio viaggio in Italia (1999) ... aka My Voyage to Italy (USA)
Kundun (1997)
Casino (1995) ... aka Casino (France)
Michael Jackson: Video Greatest Hits - HIStory (1995) (V) (video "Bad")
A Personal Journey with Martin Scorsese Through American Movies (1995) (TV)
The Age of Innocence (1993)
Cape Fear (1991)
Goodfellas (1990) ... aka GoodFellas (USA: promotional title (video box title) (poster title))
Made in Milan (1990)
New York Stories (1989) (segment "Life Lessons")
The Last Temptation of Christ (1988)
Location Production Footage: The Last Temptation of Christ (1988) (V)
Bad (1987) (V)
The Color of Money (1986)
"Amazing Stories" (1 episode, 1986)... aka Steven Spielberg Presents Amazing Stories (Australia) ... aka Steven Spielberg's Amazing Stories (USA: complete title) - Mirror, Mirror (1986) TV episode
After Hours (1985)
The King of Comedy (1982)
Raging Bull (1980)
American Boy: A Profile of: Steven Prince (1978) ... aka American Boy
The Last Waltz (1978)
New York, New York (1977)
Taxi Driver (1976)
Alice Doesn't Live Here Anymore (1974)
Italianamerican (1974)
Mean Streets (1973)
Boxcar Bertha (1972)
Street Scenes (1970) ... aka Street Scenes 1970 (USA: alternative title)
I Call First (1967) ... aka J.R. (USA: reissue title) ... aka Who's That Knocking at My Door (USA: new title (longer version))
The Big Shave (1967) ... aka The Big Shave... or, Viet '67
It's Not Just You, Murray! (1964)
What's a Nice Girl Like You Doing in a Place Like This? (1963)
Vesuvius VI (1959)